With You

I believed a lot of things
That happiness would was just a fantasy
For me to feign and engender in my mind
Over the years, I lived through others
Through the characters that gave me peace

But I never believed my own peace was to be
That I would see the world through your eyes
That I would breathe new life between your lips
Through each kiss
I am restored and renewed

I believed a lot of myths
That love was just for the few
That I would never know the bliss
Of a morning dew, of a morning kiss
That the lucky could only experience this high

But I never believed they would be dispelled
That I would feel my spirit awaken
That I would give my all to see you once again
Each moment spent is a gift
A treasure that I never knew could exist within my arms

I believed that my heart would soar through alone
For another poem written for somebody else-
but not for me
I thought I would never see the path to you
That fate handed me a deck less than the aces

But I never believed it would be here and now
That I would be crying tears of joy
That I would be able to envision a future
A future that wasn't alone anymore
A future with you

A litany for community

For the coalitions that have yet to be structured
The organizing waiting to happen
In street corners of rebuilt homes
Tracks that haven’t laid their trail
Tears that have yet to fall
Backrooms in the dreams of children yet to be born
A dream waiting to be restored
A vision yet to be formed
A place that we haven’t traveled down
A journey, on which we haven’t seen
Downtown, the epicenter of life
Passing down the sips
at each coffee shop
for every strife
Registration forms that have yet to be filled
Bills that, we will soon have to pay
For the troubles of hard work
The necessary staring contestants that fear brings
A different color
Another mother, her lover
Different skins
Different times
Empty bottles and bloody syringes
The houses, full to the brim
For the groups we participate in
Securing our place now
For the faces of tomorrow

Another time

I can't believe it was nothing
That the earth didn't bear my feet
That the tracks of my tires left a mark
That each scar meant a new disease
A need reflected after each whisper

Cause tonight we took it too far
Beyond the realms I wanted to take
I couldn't fake the expression
Testing every nerve in my body
As you hold me down and walk away

Almost broke down on the side
I've got nothing left to hide now
I borrow a kiss, a moment of bliss
In return, the favor might be exchanged
But damned down with worry

Each refrain gives into the pain
The pain of knowing I'll never see you again
The pain of wanting you more
The torture each touch provides
For another moment, for another time

First Romance

The romance I've desired
The fire I've encompassed
The dreams I've engendered
They've lingered on
Held me sturdy between the fables

The love I've looked for
The many doors held open
The countless hours keeping me at bay
The nights I laid awake
Kept me peaceful between the novels

The needs I've wanted to fill
The coffers I wanted to spill over
The yearning I've penned over before
The heavy breathing sessions on the floor
Guided me through a new terrain

The rain that fell
The demise that was
The agony of heartache
And the reality of a broken heart
Taught me lessons through many hands

The love of the past
The pain that has lasted
In search for new avenues
That will somehow appear
Over the summers, I searched for it

Tomorrow I take new land
Overcome the abhorrance
Overcome the insurgency of my own heart
That separated me from the parts-
The parts of love that I missed

The greater bliss of uncertainity
The greater test of identity
The greater need of compassion
The greatest love of myself
The greatest romance to ever occur

Miles after a broken heart

I know you've given it all
That you can no longer open up
To do so would prolong the pain
To do so would harden the harbor

1000 miles for a shot of dignity
100 miles for some respect
10 miles apart
But weekends filled up her time
Destroyed your peace, your comfortable life

I know you gave it all
That you could no longer trust again
To do so would prolong the pain
To do so would harden the harbor

1000 miles for a shot of love
100 miles for some kindness
10 miles and a right turn
But weeks filled up her time
Put her at ease, but left you dismantled

I know you hoped it would come
That you could no longer look after this
To do so would end the searching
To do so would give you understanding

1000 miles for a shot at a fairytale
100 miles for some peace
10 miles and a left turn
But months went by, and she left you
Killed your spirit, broke your heart

I know you wished it were different
That you could escape the distance
To do so would erase the sacrifice
To do so would end the agony

1000 miles for a new life
100 miles to forget the strife
10 miles to come knocking on my door
Cause miles after your broken heart
I'll be here

To the Wolves

The hanging of the telephone
Your sounds hardly convinced me
And the tears came under my breath
It was the breadth of this knowledge
That would send me to the pillow smashing
Tempers flairing, and fevers rising
The terror you almost unleashed
To feed her to the wolves
To take my oath elsewhere

In anguish and grief
The "I" statements lost themselves
Its not me that needs help
Its what I wanted, what we both felt
It was my promise, your need
And another opportunity lost
For terrority already charted upon
Feed your hungry in the streets alone

I won't wait for the turning point
For your truth, another epiphany
That the day for reality will come to you
If you could only see where you're headed back
On the back of my bones, cracking each one
I once told you they were delicate
Each one protected, with its own shell
Now you're doing the same
But I won't play 'the game'

The "I"s will come back
Cause tonight was another excuse
Another abuse in the name of harboring
The cradling of your heart
But will you stitch mine up?
It was a mistake in the pursuit of lust
Lost, because you're scared of this love

The Deck

The storybook tale never fails to heighten my dreams
As I've foreseen so much from the texts
Blessed with fantasy and imagination
Graced with the right words to say
I've played the cards right tonight

But the ending isn't so clear cut
The wonderment about life and love
Its breaking down, piece by piece
The elements have become vague
The hand I've dealt has become too frightening

And I hold the deck between my fingers
I linger on the Aces
Play the faces of each Queen and King
I've tried to rise above each number
To tumble and fall

I call you in the wee hour
To the fear of tomorrow
You can't hold me for forever
But my digits will strengthen
And my fingers will be my own

And your deck shows a full house
Which, my heart can't inhabit
But the ace is yours to keep
That's what you need right now
Its the peace we know now
The friendship we exercise

Again

Here I am once again
Wishing for your hand
Hoping I'd land safely
I was warned to brace myself
But I jumped too soon with you

Here we are once again
Seeing you in a different light
Under the covers of our eyes
And in that moment
I was grateful to be alive

Here you are once again
Surveying the area
Daring to hold back
For everything you lack
You asked how, but never when

7am

Tracing the times I've pondered
Wondered where the times went
Spent lying in bed
Forgetting thinking of all the things I've read
Trying to forget everything you said

What has lead me to here?
Was it me waiting?
Or me just wanting you near?
The fears come and manifest
Distract me from my own rest

Another ring to pass through
Who knew it would resurface
Pushing through to you
My desire lost itself there
Tumbling and pulling till tomorrow

But the sorrow leaves for only a moment
Brief in the breathes
A feeling that kept me off balance
The talents come through, only now
What have I found?

Life stands still
Looking for something to fill
Beyond a picture or a pill
Further on down
The sounds remind me where I am

My weapon of choice
Sometimes, lacks its own voice
It creeps in and pens me away
I'd rather live for now and today
then escape for tomorrow

It ebbs and flows
Showing itself when it feels the need
I barely recognize the feeling anymore
Sore, but you can't see
A need greater than you'd understand

Tracing the times I've pondered
I wonder why am I still awake
Taking it all in my head
Its 7am
And I've finally reached the bed

I haven't posted in a while

I haven't posted in awhile, but that does not mean I have not been writing since October of last year, I have been writing a lot actually. Some of it I am really happy with, others, not so much, but poetry is always a work in progress, a poem is never really finished.

So the next few posts are going to be some of my more recent ones I have written and then occassionally I will post some of the ones from earlier on.

Anyways....enjoy! And please leave feedback, I love it.

Quarterflash

My thoughts keep me insane
Cause earlier I was just tame
And my brain, about to explode
Implode down here next to me
You see the blood dripping
It creeps through
Down to the bottom of my shoes

What's new you ask
A flask that's ready to be filled
And a pill that will pop itself
Double up the dosage
Cause the madness can't contain itself
It's felt everywhere
It's manifested and I've been throughly tested

Wasted, thinking wasted is a new state of mind
And i've got no time to figure out the details
Cause tomorrow I might fail
See the error of my ways
And tonight is my new day
Ready to fade away

Picture the fight
The light flickering back to me
The sounds coming back
Soothing for the moment
A toner that needs to be replaced
And some new voyage that needs to be faced
Laced with fear and apprehension

Tomorrow you're a goner
And tonight I'm a loner
Searching for one more day
To pen the ink that awaits
And tremble below
You can hold me till you cannot
And you can kiss me till you won't
Jumping ship without a notion
Without devotion, void of emotion

Quarterflash playing in the background
The sound of July, back again
And remember when, we were yellow and leaning
Kissing over the side of the bed
Running to catch the Metro
What was left of DC
What you took with me

Lyric post

Some of my favorite lyrics....

Sitting in a park in paris, france
Reading the news and it sure looks bad
They wont give peace a chance
That was just a dream some of us had
Still a lot of lands to see
But I wouldnt want to stay here
Its too old and cold and settled in its ways here
Oh, but california
California Im coming home
Im going to see the folks I dig
Ill even kiss a sunset pig
California Im coming home

I met a redneck on a grecian isle
Who did the goat dance very well
He gave me back my smile
But he kept my camera to sell
Oh the rogue, the red red rogue
He cooked good omelettes and stews
And I might have stayed on with him there
But my heart cried out for you, california
Oh california Im coming home
Oh make me feel good rockn roll band
Im your biggest fan
California, Im coming home

Chorus:

Oh it gets so lonely
When youre walking
And the streets are full of strangers
All the news of home you read
Just gives you the blues
Just gives you the blues

So I bought me a ticket
I caught a plane to spain
Went to a party down a red dirt road
There were lots of pretty people there
Reading rolling stone, reading vogue
They said, how long can you hang around?
I said a week, maybe two,
Just until my skin turns brown
Then Im going home to california
California Im coming home
Oh will you take me as I am
Strung out on another man
California Im coming home

Chorus:

Oh it gets so lonely
When youre walking
And the streets are full of strangers
All the news of home you read
More about the war
And the bloody changes
Oh will you take me as l am?
Will you take me as l am?
Will you?